Not sure how to start this but noticed 2 things in the media recently. (Trigger warning suicide and child abuse)
One a woman who had been sexually asaultied, I can’t remember if it was as a child or a woman. Had been given permission to euthanize herself. I think this was the wrong choice to make and can’t help but think if she held in there she may have gotten to a place in her life where she would have been relatively happy. I have the memory of being sexually abused as far back as my memory goes to around the age of six or seven and of some repeat occurances at age 16.
I won’t lie I believe this had a serious impact on my life, I have tried to take my life on a few occasions and been diagnosed with schizophrenia, deppression and can’t get my head around being in a relationship. I really struggle in social situations. All that said I also have memory’s of finishing marathons, nice easy runs On sunny days with my dog, just walking with my dog on a nice day. Some good conversations with people, good music, films, books and food. The sense of accomplishment of losing 7 stone and holding a job for the best part of 3 years and finally managing to stay clear of mental institutions for a few years.
I also read that people have an attitude that people with mental health difficulties are better off dead. I would completely disagree with this , I have a life worth living . There are hard dark days but I manage . There is joy and sadness in my life , I just need to place an effort into staying stable and it is worth it.
To say again MY LIFE IS WORTH LIVING . I am not saying it was or is easy but definitely worth it. If any one thinks otherwise feel free to fuck off.
Also doing free online course on understanding depression anxiety and CBT , I find it very interesting , you can do it at your own pace . See link below if any one interested.
This post is not meant to cause any offensive to anyone it is just my opinion unless you think my life is not worth living In which case fuck off.
Sorry about language
keep on trucking
Voicehearer548 
Thank you for this post… Yes, your life is ABSOLUTELY worth living and there is no shame in telling anyone who disagrees to “fuck off”! People can be so cruel, and even those who try to understand, if they haven’t been through trauma and abuse themselves, they can’t grasp how much strength and grit it takes to get through some days. You are a survivor, resilient and strong, and you have an amazing life to live–so LIVE IT! XOXO, Mei ❤
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Stay brave and positive. All life is glorious and wonderful.
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I’m sorry you have schitz. My mother has it too. And YES your life is worth living. That fact that you realize you have it, is amazing in itself. It’s not easy, but small changes build up over time. You can get there if you put in the effort. I pray persistence, steadfastness, and that you give yourself lots of grace in the journey
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Thanks but please don’t be sorry. I see my illness as my brains normal reaction to some bad situations in my life, sort of like a coping mechanism. Have a look at Eleanor longden on ted talks she explains it better than I can. I won’t lie it took me a while to gain insight into my illness. I hope your mother finds peace of mind.
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