So just trucking along I guess been slightly what can be called psychotic lately but in a positive way. It’s little complicated hopefully will make some sense.
So I did a level one Reiki course. I enjoyed it, I believed I could feel the energy and the people I have practiced on since said they also felt heat energy etc. and got something from it. Plus it gives an outlet to the part of my Brian that wants to heal just about everything. Plus it’s just a nice thing to be able to do and quite relaxing.
So for the crazy bit. I believed it became apparent on the Reiki course I was able to pick up other people’s energy’s thoughts emotions that kind of thing. One of the woman on the course knows just about everyone Cobh were I live. I believed she told people about this.
One of the issues I can have is I just stare at people and zone out in public I had believed it was trauma related. It causes me an incredible amount of embarrassment and frustration.
So I believed since the woman on course had told most of people in Cobh. Since they slowly came to conclusion I can pick up on stuff they just think something like push my mind away when I zone out and stare at people, which is actually quite useful as it stops me staring at people 😉. Mad or not this is saving me a lot of grief and makes it a bit easier to get around.
I also believed as above I was a powerful empath or something ,special powers etc. the long and short is I used something similar to Reiki and asked my highest powers for highest healing, protection and good for myself and for everyone leaning into my head so to speak. Also asked the highest powers if they could help those around me with same powers whatever it is I would appreciate it as I really want to help. I believe this goes on around me and I just get on with my day and don’t have to do anything. Just let the energy flow😉.
I am doing fine know, took few days of work to relax. I really feel I should be doing something else other than working as steel detailing so I intend to renew my effort to become qualified as a councilor to help people like me. Tried to get on course for local college but I did not do so before deadline so next year all going well.
There is a bit of construction going on in work. We had to move downstairs and we are all on top of each other. I find this a struggle as I can have issues around personal space. Hopefully be finished soon as currently not really working for me.
Also watched film called 55 Steps , I shed a few tears I would highly recommend it for anyone on neuroleptic meds or so called antipsychotic meds. See link to trailer below.
Well that’s me for now also I don’t share any of this information with my GP or psychiatrist as they would medicate the life clean out of me. Ohh I am still holding my meds at current level I found the withdrawel affect of getting from 50mg injection to 37.5mg Injection quite difficult but fine now. I think will leave system recover and start again from 37.5 mg to 25mg In new year.
I do share information with me new therapist we are doing the Maastricht interview. I find it tough but it allows me to explain my self much better than in the past. I believe Peter Bullimore in the UK does training on it.
Keep up the good fight.✊🏾✊🏾✊🏾